THIS PROJECT WAS MADE AT A VERY CONFUSING TIME IN MY LIFE COMING TO TERMS WITH MY SEXUALITY AND THE DAMAGE MY EATING DISORDER HAD DONE TO ME. THE FILM IS A BIT OF A MESS BUT SO WAS I. I ALMOST DIDN’T PUT THIS VIDEO UP BUT I FELT IT CAME FROM THIS RAW PURELY CREATIVE EXPERIMENTAL TIME IN MY LIFE, WHERE I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT ART HOW IT IS SUPPOSE TO BE DONE. I FIND THIS IS SUCH A WEAKNESS NOW BUT LOOKING BACK ON THIS PROJECT IT JUST FEELS ALIVE TO ME, THIS VIDEO FEELS LIKE AN OPEN WOUND. JUST PURE EMOTION NOT WORRYING ABOUT AN OUTCOME JUST MAKING SOMETHING BECAUSE YOU NEED TO, I WAS FEELING EVERYTHING SO DEEPLY AT A TIME WHEN I FELT LIKE I COULDN’T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT                                                               HOW I FELT AND THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY TO GET IT ALL OUT.